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Dec. 18th, 2004 11:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ristinNot much time.
Here. trapped in NZ in close confines to family, i discovered something worrying.
My mother "knows" i had come out to her and gotten her terminally bad reaction, so bad it has thus far prevented me coming out to my father (who is rumoured to know via my mother but since i haven't told him 'cos my mother made me promise not to...) she knows about my plan to elope (basically) on the 31st.
So...this year of work experience is ending (duh) but she thought it'd be permenant or some shit so...she is primarily worried about it. Second biggest worry after my career (and thus family pride?) is that i will be moving away. She never actually adressed my fate or feelings but only tangentiually touched upon my welfare from a career basis...
Naturally she is only willing to address this one-on-one since no one else should know, and Andersons like me come in 3 group types. "single", "pair" and "argument". Bring a 3rd person in and "fight's on!"
Gotta manage this...past time i did infact. Damnit, but i so do not need this right now...
BUT don't worry folks, i am ok. safe, secure. If that changes, i can hop a taxi and crash in a motel for abit before my flight home...thus missing xmass/reunion which is the reason none of this will be allowed to "come to a head" or the 'happy families' act shatters.
I wonder what a loving caring family would be like, not this weird fascade based upon appearances and academic achievement. I just have no idea anymore...
For those with a will to read my archive:
^_^ Time to dance.
Here. trapped in NZ in close confines to family, i discovered something worrying.
My mother "knows" i had come out to her and gotten her terminally bad reaction, so bad it has thus far prevented me coming out to my father (who is rumoured to know via my mother but since i haven't told him 'cos my mother made me promise not to...) she knows about my plan to elope (basically) on the 31st.
So...this year of work experience is ending (duh) but she thought it'd be permenant or some shit so...she is primarily worried about it. Second biggest worry after my career (and thus family pride?) is that i will be moving away. She never actually adressed my fate or feelings but only tangentiually touched upon my welfare from a career basis...
Naturally she is only willing to address this one-on-one since no one else should know, and Andersons like me come in 3 group types. "single", "pair" and "argument". Bring a 3rd person in and "fight's on!"
Gotta manage this...past time i did infact. Damnit, but i so do not need this right now...
BUT don't worry folks, i am ok. safe, secure. If that changes, i can hop a taxi and crash in a motel for abit before my flight home...thus missing xmass/reunion which is the reason none of this will be allowed to "come to a head" or the 'happy families' act shatters.
I wonder what a loving caring family would be like, not this weird fascade based upon appearances and academic achievement. I just have no idea anymore...
For those with a will to read my archive:
^_^ Time to dance.
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Date: 2004-12-20 01:18 pm (UTC)Might even have chocolate for comforting if that is what's needed. :)