Gelfen's Wedding
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gelfen's wedding last night. It was great. Such a beautiful event. at the time i described my feelings as "a lovely bittersweet feeling" because i am happy for gelfen and his wife, both long time friends of mine, and a great couple.
Bittersweet? Well...I was there alone, at a celebration all about couples and unions. Also, it's a world i can never be a part of. At best i can hope for a small gathering of friends (not relatives, on either side) to mark a legal union between me andmarko_the_rat. Marriage is beautiful to watch, but i have neither the faith, money, or approved-sexual-orientation for it.
Technically i was far from alone,pearl and aslan42 were there too, sharing the same table.
But enough about me (i say in my own lj?) I want to say congratulations to the new couple, and i would wish them luck except they will not need it. What the heck "good luck!" because a little luck never hurts.
gelfen is a great person and a true friend, and i will miss him alot after i move. I can't begin to guess how much he has influenced my life (for the better) over the years.
It was good to get a last chance to catch up to all my old friends from uni as well...putting a good spin on my tale of deathspiraling career woes, and hearing their stories of success, or the road to success. Ah well...but some good came out of my dismal (career) failure, in the form of meeting my own lover. Also, lol, i can't see many reasons left to not fulfil my growing desire to get full body 'coon 'fur', patterns and colouration tattooed over my entire body. Lol, that'd be quite a sight at centerlink! (centerlink=dole office). Like, "why not" exceptmarko_the_rat has never liked the idea, and i still have a shred or two of hope that i might get a reasonable job sometime before i die of old age.
Weddings...very good at inspiring such "what if?" and "what about me?!" thoughts, lol. Especially weddings less than 2 full weeks before i leave the state...and weddings with receptions so close to my old turf. It was in Sydnham, which i have been passing back and fourth for over 2 decades, and seen it go from farms to urban developement in that time. All these whoughts of how much it has changed helped emphasise the magnitude of my own recent changes and their long suppressed roots...and the coming change in my life, also a long time coming (all year).
This was all helped by going over my LJ archive...seeing how it all began there, and the detailed description of how this year came about. It's 'foundation' of the year and its events, if you will.
I never wavered in my resolve to leave though, through all these musings, i know now i am ready.marko_the_rat, soon we will be together.
gelfen's wedding last night. It was great. Such a beautiful event. at the time i described my feelings as "a lovely bittersweet feeling" because i am happy for gelfen and his wife, both long time friends of mine, and a great couple. Bittersweet? Well...I was there alone, at a celebration all about couples and unions. Also, it's a world i can never be a part of. At best i can hope for a small gathering of friends (not relatives, on either side) to mark a legal union between me and
marko_the_rat. Marriage is beautiful to watch, but i have neither the faith, money, or approved-sexual-orientation for it.Technically i was far from alone,
pearl and aslan42 were there too, sharing the same table.But enough about me (i say in my own lj?) I want to say congratulations to the new couple, and i would wish them luck except they will not need it. What the heck "good luck!" because a little luck never hurts.
gelfen is a great person and a true friend, and i will miss him alot after i move. I can't begin to guess how much he has influenced my life (for the better) over the years.It was good to get a last chance to catch up to all my old friends from uni as well...putting a good spin on my tale of deathspiraling career woes, and hearing their stories of success, or the road to success. Ah well...but some good came out of my dismal (career) failure, in the form of meeting my own lover. Also, lol, i can't see many reasons left to not fulfil my growing desire to get full body 'coon 'fur', patterns and colouration tattooed over my entire body. Lol, that'd be quite a sight at centerlink! (centerlink=dole office). Like, "why not" except
marko_the_rat has never liked the idea, and i still have a shred or two of hope that i might get a reasonable job sometime before i die of old age.Weddings...very good at inspiring such "what if?" and "what about me?!" thoughts, lol. Especially weddings less than 2 full weeks before i leave the state...and weddings with receptions so close to my old turf. It was in Sydnham, which i have been passing back and fourth for over 2 decades, and seen it go from farms to urban developement in that time. All these whoughts of how much it has changed helped emphasise the magnitude of my own recent changes and their long suppressed roots...and the coming change in my life, also a long time coming (all year).
This was all helped by going over my LJ archive...seeing how it all began there, and the detailed description of how this year came about. It's 'foundation' of the year and its events, if you will.
I never wavered in my resolve to leave though, through all these musings, i know now i am ready.
marko_the_rat, soon we will be together.
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Date: 2004-12-04 01:43 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-12-04 02:04 pm (UTC)Um..
Date: 2004-12-04 04:41 pm (UTC)Re: Um..
Date: 2004-12-04 04:42 pm (UTC)You said where it was, my bad. Not the same one. Forgive me for not reading more clearly ^^
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Date: 2004-12-10 03:21 pm (UTC)