KOTOR!

I finished Knights of the olf Republic yesterday.

But, just as a light-sider. Time to try out the dark side and see where it leads me...but maybe i should go depopulate halo first, just for the change...

Endings, new beginnings

It's been a long time coming.
Something just happened, and there's no going back. Long story short, i tried standing up for myself to my folks for the first time...and all i got was worse and worse opposition and abuse.

I won't go into the fine details now...i want to but it'd be speaking from anger...

Basically...if things have gotten so bad I feared a physical attack...i'm not putting up with that. After that unpleasantness (at seperate times from both parents) when everyone (me included) calmed down, they started explaining how them shouting at me was my fault...and i set them straight that i wasn't taking the blame for their actions anymore...and after a lot of shouting and hateful words and a threat that to kick me out...it calmed down again a little...and i was asked to tell them what was wrong, and they'd listen. I thougt to myself "this won't work, it never has" and it didn't.

I give up. It's too much when i'm getting afraid for my safety (i'm sleeping tonight with a hockey stick holding my door closed), and the things they said...
I'm sick of this ordeal, and i just can't face going on living this lie, i don't feel safe...

I saw in their eyes, there was no love there, no care, no affection...I wonder if that's what they saw in mine?