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Square Zero
Dec. 17th, 2003 01:57 pmThat's it. I'm bact to square zero. Not square one...that's where i was last november...
News of death...the job i had in-the-bag didn't pan out...
This time last year? I had brand-spankin'-new qualifications, and had lined up a job already, and was just waiting for confirmation and a written agreement to go with the verbal offer.
Now? This year's qraduates are competing on the job market, it's been nearly a year since i got any work experience, and i've cold-called everyone cold-calable already...
I didn't get the ATC job i've been holding out for. Not only that, but my backup plan of using Airservice Australia as a reference to go for similar jobs here and in the US has been destroyed 'cos they said i was unsuitable and wouldn't be reconsidered...this based on my answers in a one hour interview revolving around wether i had a girlfriend and how i felt about the death of my grandfather.
As far as i can see this is effectively the end of my chances for getting a career for myself...i see now that it's all contacts, so i wasted this year trying to get a job by applying normally...and infact wasted the last 7 years 'cos i didn't have any contacts to make my qualifications useful. If, by some miracle, someone comes and saves me then "yay"...or if someone turns out to have contacts and is willing to use them to bail me out then...but i've been looking for that sort of thing all year too. So..."i'm screwed", not only do i have no forseeable options, plans or prospects, but i feel "burned out" too. Why?
This is the third certain job that has been yanked from my grasp in the last 12 months. I can't get a shred of hope or expectation going now...i feel empty and dead inside. I knew this would happen if i missed this one...i put the last of my hope and confidence into this...now it's all gone. Numb. I have already heard some buzzing about some opportunities...some guy is comissionng a plant over in the east past Melbourne and a friend-of-a-friend has put in my name...i'll try for this, but i can't get happy or exited about it. Maybe if it becomes another sure thing i'll get all worked up, even though it'll probably be stolen by fate at the last moment.
News of death...the job i had in-the-bag didn't pan out...
This time last year? I had brand-spankin'-new qualifications, and had lined up a job already, and was just waiting for confirmation and a written agreement to go with the verbal offer.
Now? This year's qraduates are competing on the job market, it's been nearly a year since i got any work experience, and i've cold-called everyone cold-calable already...
I didn't get the ATC job i've been holding out for. Not only that, but my backup plan of using Airservice Australia as a reference to go for similar jobs here and in the US has been destroyed 'cos they said i was unsuitable and wouldn't be reconsidered...this based on my answers in a one hour interview revolving around wether i had a girlfriend and how i felt about the death of my grandfather.
As far as i can see this is effectively the end of my chances for getting a career for myself...i see now that it's all contacts, so i wasted this year trying to get a job by applying normally...and infact wasted the last 7 years 'cos i didn't have any contacts to make my qualifications useful. If, by some miracle, someone comes and saves me then "yay"...or if someone turns out to have contacts and is willing to use them to bail me out then...but i've been looking for that sort of thing all year too. So..."i'm screwed", not only do i have no forseeable options, plans or prospects, but i feel "burned out" too. Why?
This is the third certain job that has been yanked from my grasp in the last 12 months. I can't get a shred of hope or expectation going now...i feel empty and dead inside. I knew this would happen if i missed this one...i put the last of my hope and confidence into this...now it's all gone. Numb. I have already heard some buzzing about some opportunities...some guy is comissionng a plant over in the east past Melbourne and a friend-of-a-friend has put in my name...i'll try for this, but i can't get happy or exited about it. Maybe if it becomes another sure thing i'll get all worked up, even though it'll probably be stolen by fate at the last moment.
