I failed

[ristin]

I failed.

I had a few chances to get James (the dog) a good home fith friends and family...
But none panned out.
It was close though...he spent last night at the home of one of my sister's close friends. That family had lost a dog to snakebite recently, and were the last chance...but the dog was too good at jumping fences and they couldn't keep it.
I would have, but same problem (except most of our fences are waist high) and there's no way i could keep a boarder collie here...it'd need to be chained up most of the time, which is not acceptable for an energetic dog.

What i didn't expect was the family who had the dog last night would take it to the RSPCA themselves. It turns out my folks called them and told them to do that rather than bring James back here.
"bastards!" they had no right to interfere...but they were so hell bent on stopping the dog from being here. They made the few days i had the dog into a nightmare...way more trouble than it should have been. And now this?...those fucking jerks...
well, i was out of options for homes for James anyway...and he's so nice and friendly and adorable he's sure to get adopted from the RSPCA...

So i guess it's a good outcome, the best possible, and i tried all the options and people i could think of...
but that betrayal (it feels that way) from my family...damnit but that's made up my mind on the "should i move out asap (with any non-centerlink wage) or stay and build up some savings" question...i'm so gone from this place when i get half a chance...
I'm sick of anything i do that involves interests and people outside my family being fiercly opposed...it's gone too far now...protests, complaints and arguments are one thing...but deliberate interference, betrayal and sabotage of my relationships to friends and of my buisness...that's WAY over the line.

Worst part? I promised Scamps i'd get the dog a home...and the backstab stopped me keeping that promise. Hell, any mook could have gotten the dog to the rspca, damnit! I wanted to do better than that...
It was such a great dog...it deserved better.

Current mood: Sad, disapointed and FURIOUS WITH OUTRAGE!
Current music: None

Comments

[darth-phylos.livejournal.com]

Move out. It is that simple.

[ozkangaroo.livejournal.com]

Dude you where great to take the dog in the first place,
Scamps and DW couldn't face up to the responcability of having a dog, and i was amazed you offerd, the point is it was going to be put down anyways, so you did your best ^_^
Be happy with that.
As for your parents, up to you dude, maybe if you move out you'll actually learn that smiling at a disney cartoon is ok and not uncool,

Anywho, i wouldn't move out just yet, unless things are reallllllly that bad.

But i guess your coming to the age where your getting sick of your folks. (coming from the 19 year old)

Do what you feel is best ^_^

*hugs ya lots and lots*

[ristin.livejournal.com]

I've been sick of it all my life...i only realized it a few years ago after my first taste of freedom and the beginning of my social existence.

Move out?...I can wait till feb.

I got feedback about the ATC thing btw, "keep waiting" pretty much...so i'm still in with a (good?) chance.

[subrosa-florens.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry dearheart. You tried to be honorable, many others would have not done so much. What happened is not your fault. Not from the start, and certainly not to the finish.

I do suggest you get out of there. As soon as you can. Ever since I have known you, it has been apparent that your family is the largest source of pain and stress in your life. You do have a right, and now I think a need, to protect yourself from them. Since I have some personal experience with this kind of thing, I understand exactly what it is like to be where you are right now, concerning them.

I am not advocating breaking your ties with the family. Just get out of that house. You will probably find that they are easier to deal with once you have some space between you.

Start looking for a place right away. Do not rent your own apartment. Instead look for someone who needs a roommate. That way you will not get locked into a lease, and you can pick up and leave when the ATC (or whatever) job comes through. Besides, it is cheaper that way when you split the bills.

[ristin.livejournal.com]

Hmmm...roommate? I'll look into that. I can't think of many potential people though.

btw we both know you get much worse trouble from your family Rose. :(

i'm in the "wtf? do i even know these people?" stage, following the "wait a sec...i don't actually like these people" stage and shortly before i move into the long anticipated "hang on...my family? but i HATE them all".

I managed to avoid the "i'm afraid of physical retaliation" problem about totally. (phew!) But...the emotional baggage is starting to weigh me down, and i don't like it.
And typing this inspired what i'm about to post right now...

[subrosa-florens.livejournal.com]

I dunno. It sounds like you are in pretty much the same situation with your family as I am with mine. Well, they just did not beat you as a child. But otherwise, right now, I see little difference.

[subrosa-florens.livejournal.com]

Oh, roomates. you do not need to know someone beforehand. Just look for ads in papers or on campus looking for a roomate. A lot of people have no prior knowledge of their roomates. Granted, it is not exactly the safest thing, but it can be just as good as it can be just as bad.

[tzup.livejournal.com]

Dude! You so did not fail! You had no obligation to clean up what was basically someone elses lack of responsibility. If DW had been even remotely a responsible pet owner, the problem would never have arisen. James was to be taken to the RSPCA in the end at anyrate. I for one think alot more of you (not that I didn't before), because you at least went to the effort of trying to do something instead of just standing by. For those who believe in karma, you have little to fear.

[ristin.livejournal.com]

Thanks...
It means a lot to me that you and Oz aren't angry with me about this. ^_^